Enliven Your Health

 How We Internally Abuse Ourselves

Hit yourself!!! WHAT??? !  Why would you even do that in the first place right?

You probably think this is completely unacceptable, and you’re right, hitting is unacceptable, but we do it constantly on a mental level so what makes that ok?  Just because we don’t see the physical bruises that our mind causes our hearts and our internal body, doesn’t mean they are not there.  The way we feel internally manifests externally in our bodies and in our lives.  Our sadness shows in our face and the way we walk, our pain manifests in the tension we carry in our body, our anger manifests in the tone we use when we speak.  You cannot run away from your internal world so as a reminder to check in with it, see how it feels to hurt yourself physically every-time you do mentally.  I invite you to hit yourself (lightly!!!!) every time a negative thought comes up about yourself and about others? Speaking from experience, I reckon it doesn’t feel too good.  These negative thoughts are continuously hurting us internally and spiritually.

What negative voice??? You know the voice that says you are not good enough, not strong enough, not courageous enough.  Mine use to call me a full-blown WTF! Everything about me was a disaster.  I use to punch myself for just about everything under the sun! I use to internally punch myself for being born a woman, for being in this body, for just being. In that painful process I bruised my heart, my soul, and my body.  Every part of me hurt inside, until I got tired of hitting myself and I surrendered. In that desperate surrender, I finally opened up to more. I got out of my own way.  I allowed myself to heal. I forgave myself, and those who once hurt me. I let go of past pain for it only weighs me down. I forgave my mind and myself for being my own source of pain.

I am still continuously releasing the old and allowing the new in, and it gets easier everyday. When that negative voice comes in, “Liliya you are not good enough to be happy”, I just stare it straight in the face and realize it is just me saying that; nobody else, just me.  I can now witness my own abuse, rather than be the abuser. I’m not a big fan of bullying so to witness that I am a big bully to myself brings me to a complete understanding as to why others use to bully me.  I unconsciously allowed it to happen by being my own bully and awakening  to that truth is enlightening.

So, I invite you to heal your internal self.  I would start by practicing self-abuse….just kidding!

What I really mean is to discover how you abuse yourself constantly on a mental level, and if punching yourself helps you stop that mental abuse then go for it! Just don’t hit hard!!!  I invite you to discover how much we ignore just because we don’t see our feelings and emotions as a tangible thing or a color that is visible to our eyes, so we go on ignoring them.  I invite you to open your eyes to the beauty of the world and how much healing and support is out there and all you need to do is reach out and ask.  Once the internal abuse stops, so will the external abuse, but it starts within.

And ALWAYS REMEMBER….

• Respect your body, mind, and soul and it shall respect you back.
• Be kind, loving, patient, compassionate, and supportive in mind, spirit, and physical being.
• Breathe deeply to awaken your humble spirit
• Be true to your words
• PLAY! (highly encouraged)

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